When the thought crossed my mind that I could possibly become possessed while on vacation, I knew my anxiety had reached a ridiculous level.
I love to travel. In March of this year, I embarked on my first international trip and completed an almost two week vacay to Amsterdam, Cape Town, and Johannesburg/Limpopo Province.
And, while the trip was magnificent, the weeks leading up to it were the most stressful of my life.
The fear of what could possibly happen engulfed my entire being. I sat upright in my bed most nights and drafted near impossible disaster scenarios of what was to come:
- Our plane would be shot down. We were traveling to Turkey to get on our connecting flights. The political climate is tricky; anything could happen.
- Our plane would literally explode in the air.
- We would get kidnapped on our way there. There are only two of us. Someone could definitely take us down and steal our organs.
- As mentioned earlier, I could get possessed by a spirit in our Holiday Inn hotel.
Honestly, how many times do you hear about planes actually exploding in the air? It’s not that common and flying is apparently super safe. However, I realize that the anxiety will never go away.
It’ll always be there.
So, instead of trying to make myself get rid of it, I manage it.
I think of all the beauty I’m about to experience. Whether I’ve been there or not, I know I’m going to enjoy myself
I meditate. I journal. I write out all of my fears in regards to traveling and counter those fears with something positive.
I’m an organization freak so I make lists and check, check, double check them for accuracy.
I’m just a naturally anxious person. That’s who I am. I’m going to always have this anxiety but I won’t let it keep me from traveling. The spirit of traveling, the freedom I feel while in another location, is more important than my consistent worry. I’m happy to have all of this opportunity so why not take advantage?
Why not take advantage of the opportunities you do have?
And, if I do come back possessed by a spirit, I’ll probably be able to do some cool magic shit. That’s something, right?
Sincerely, Sydney Nicole 